6 Years of Thorough and Unkempt!

WordPress tells me it’s the completion of 6 years. That means it’s the 5th anniversary right? That’s big. Let’s celebrate with my first ever vlog!

WordPress notified me that it’s my 6 year anniversary today, and while I had a couple of other ideas to write about, it felt right that I address this, and address it in a format that I thought I wouldn’t be attempting for another month.

I’ve been toying with the idea of introducing a video element, but the moment felt right to kickstart it.

I will think out and format future videos better, but this one is just a ramble about my feelings, and the history of this blog, and what I plan for in the future. It’s 10 minutes, so if you watched it the full way through, I am proud of you! 😛

Thank you for reading this post, and thank you for any interactions we’ve had in the past. If you have any feedback/criticism/advice/slurs/pointers for me (about content or presentation or the direction of the blog), please do not hesitate, and tell me in the comments below. Thank you for reading, and if you watched, thank you for watching!

Blue Hair

I colored my hair blue and I’m glad most people didn’t care.

This is a true short post, as Microblog Mondays should be. My hair is now blue. I just wanted to say how heartening I found it that people didn’t care my hair is blue. Barring a couple of people, nobody stared on the streets. Nobody pointed and laughed. Nobody cared, which is perfect. That is how it should be. Continue reading “Blue Hair”

How Easy Good Habits Feel for Me Right Now

So this week I didn’t want to continue the thread of motivation like I’ve been doing on Mondays. I’m being a little more loose and personal this week. I don’t care about SEO and readability and other jazz of blog maintenance.

By far, the most pressing goal I’ve had in my mind for the last 6 months has been to lose weight. I gained 14 kg over the course of my year of depression, going from 68 to 82. In November, I restarted taking care of my body but I wasn’t making much progress.

Over the next few months, I gained a lot of muscle, but I hadn’t lost a shred of weight. I still haven’t.

However, I have learned so much about nutrition and exercise in the last few months – dispelling fitness myths that we peddle without thought on a daily basis. And now, after a slow month and a half of dried motivation and a possible return of depression, I’m suddenly finding it easy to stick to better eating and working out.

I don’t know what changed, but I’m eating more protein, less fat, and I’m finally back in the gym. Yesterday, when I checked my weight, it was 78.8 – some progress. Again, these things fluctuate easily (water weight) but it was the first time in over a year that I saw the number seventy-eight on the scale, and that refilled my well of motivation.

In general, motivation and willpower are very overrated assets. They run out. I’ve learned that health is a lifestyle, not a diet or a workout program, and hopefully, over the next 9 months, I will have ingrained good fitness and nutrition habits in my life.

I feel like I’m writing this for myself, not for you, the reader, and that’s okay. Everybody should allow themselves that. I haven’t written for myself in a long time – the problem being that I’ve become so one-track-minded that I find it hard to write fiction or stories that I like. But I feel positive.

I feel positive.

This blog will now resume its scheduled programming. 🙂 I’ve been very diligent about conducting Talkback interviews, and tomorrow’s is a great one. It’ll be out at 9 AM IST.

I normally end my blog posts with “Thank you for reading.”, because I really mean it, but today, I’m telling myself – thank you for writing.

You Can Only Do A Certain Number of Things Everyday

#MicroblogMondays We often demand too much of ourselves, and that’s not fair because we can only do a certain number of things everyday before we burnout.

Aren’t stock photos great?

A few weeks ago, I wrote a post about using Sundays to plan your week. The problem with planning though, is that we are unable to align our expectations with our delivery, and that leads to frustration. Continue reading “You Can Only Do A Certain Number of Things Everyday”

Earn your Weekends for a Sustainable Life

Create a work plan of achievable goals for the week just enough to earn your weekends. It’s a sustainable way to be productive without burning out.

A couple of weeks ago, I described how every Monday is a New Year. In that post, I described getting more out of your week by planning it on Sunday evening. Specifically, I tried planning and preparing my meals on Sunday to take the stress out of good nutrition.

What if you extended that to your feeling of contribution and self-worth? Continue reading “Earn your Weekends for a Sustainable Life”

Every Monday is a New Year

#Microblog New Year resolutions fail because of lack of planning and dedication. Reaffirm your goals every Sunday by planning your week.

You’ve heard the story about New Year’s Eve. We all know the cockamamie culture around setting resolutions by the 1st of January and forgetting them by the 10th.

I personally believe in New Year’s resolutions – I believe that priming your brain to do better is a legitimate way to be better than you are. I’ve so far kept up with my plans. The issue is in two things: dedication, and planning. There are three aspects to this: definition, achievability, and grinding. Continue reading “Every Monday is a New Year”

Heat and Dirt make Jack Unhappy

#MicroblogMondays 15/3/16 on a Tuesday! :/ Blog updates + talking about heat and dirt, and energy combining to form a motivation well.

Hey look! It’s #MicroblogMondays! On a Tuesday! …err. Let’s blame it on heat and dirt this time.

The last 7 days have been a whirlwind of emotion for me. But isn’t that every week? I don’t know. I am in a haze of office work and Recipe lab worries. I can’t seem to tell 2 days apart and am autopiloting frequently. Continue reading “Heat and Dirt make Jack Unhappy”

Is Outrage Culture Strong?

#MicroblogMondays Mar 7, 2016 – Short post about outrage culture, political fatigue, anger and Boogie2988’s latest video.

So there’s a popular YouTuber by the name of Boogie2988 whom I recently discovered for myself and he released a video about Outrage Culture earlier today. He’s a nice, level-headed vlogger that makes different types of content – gaming content, commentary on the gaming industry and online culture, and about weight struggles, and in general, about current events.

He released a video earlier today about how the current generation of people, both young and old, abuse the gift of the internet. People abuse this wonderful, amazing global network that our species has created.

I found it very relevant to content I come across everyday. The YouTube comment section and several messageboards online (4chan, reddit, tumblr etc.) are so poisonous and reactive. You might have seen this on Facebook with public photos and people commenting on it.

It’s relevant with our country as well – with so many people being part of this outrage culture. I don’t just mean about the current overly politicized JNU situation, but anything that really pops up.

It’s relevant with the US more than ever, because people are so fatigued of everything that they’re willing to support Donald Trump as the next presidential candidate. They’re so tired that they are leaning on Trump as a support mechanism to make them feel better.

It’s a scary situation. On one hand, we have the overly political correct people fighting to stop people from saying anything negative ever. Then on the other hand, we have overly antagonistic people just trying to piss everyone off. It seems like everyone is participating in outrage culture. Everyone is fighting.

What do you think? Do you think Outrage Culture is real, or are we being paranoid? Do you like to put out these fires when you see them, or do you prefer to stay away? Comment down below.

I’ve linked Boogie’s video below for reference.

The Importance of Cleaning + Blog Updates

#MicroblogMondays Feb 29, 2016 – Free flow post about importance of cleaning, house getting out of hand, headaches, and blog updates.

Hi to you. I have a screaming headache. In the last 4 days, I’ve had headaches every now and then.

My house has been filthy, and I hadn’t realized it. I’d been cleaning and rearranging every now and then, but I guess maybe I didn’t go into the issue. I’m just going to go grab a coke zero. Be right back.

Back. Went and bought about 3 days’ supply of Coke zero. In the last month, I’ve redeveloped a taste for it. I did some reading into it, and evaporated one can in a pan to check the sugar content and there wasn’t any – it all evaporated. Don’t really care about health conspiracies regarding artificial sweeteners. It’s a better way to get caffeine than destroying your house with spoilt milk.

I just googled spoilt vs spoiled. Spoilt is fine – it’s the participle. Reminds me that I wanted to take a thorough lesson in English grammar. Back to spoilt milk.

2 weeks ago, I was insanely busy with multiple events needing my attention. One day, I forgot some milk outside, and it soured by the evening when I came back from work. I disposed of it, but my attention being called away, I didn’t have time to tackle the growing pile of dishes. Turns out, a milk pan attracts a lot of fruit flies.

My fridge seemed to stop cooling. Food inside the fridge was getting spoilt too. How does that work? There were flies in there too – what the hell?

Flies, dishes, clothes lying about, a film of dust across the house – all parts of a larger whole – an unhealthy environment that gave me splitting headaches, brought down my mood, and undid the progress I was making for the last 3 months on my anxiety + depression.

I didn’t want to write for the blog. It’s getting harder to keep myself motivated, despite the leniency I’ve allowed myself over the last month. The headache doesn’t want me to write. On Saturday, I wrote myself a very angry, cussy letter over a bunch of issues. I showed it to my friend P and he said it doesn’t need to go out. I cleaned it up, and that was the Letters to Myself this week.

The angry letter (the actual one) was helpful. It allowed me to create an automatic trigger between my anger (heat-up motivation) and one of my relief methods (cool down from sadness) so that I can make sure I don’t get too negatively inclined while still maintaining some consistency of motivation.

I cleaned out every inch of my fridge I could. I scrubbed all the dishes hard. I put away most clothes, and I swept and mopped the house. There’s still work to be done, but the environment is significantly cleaner than before. The goal is now to maintain consistency and keep it as close to clean for as long as possible without needing a massive overhaul.

For the blog in March, the new posting schedule remains the same. There’ll be Talkback Tuesdays (some interviews conducted already, yay), Appreciating on Thursday (topics for the entire month planned, so that’s good), Letters on Saturday, and maybe a couple of Letter Replies on Sundays. Microblog Mondays might be more posts like this. Quite therapeutic, really. If posts go out at 2:00 pm, you’ll know I successfully wrote them in advance.

Also, it’s time to execute some thematic changes to the blog. Note to self: March 15 is deadline. Make the time to do it.

I’d really like some feedback on the Recipe Lab posts. For March, I’m thinking chocolate – so 5 chocolate recipes, both sweet and savoury. But it’s not worth writing about it if it is not helping anybody – Instagram and Facebook are fine for posting just pictures. If you think my recipes are worth your time, please leave a comment below. If you don’t know about Recipe Lab, here are the two I’ve done – the posts explain themselves:
Recipe Lab January: Lentils / Daals
Recipe Lab February: Sandwiches

The headache is back. More cleaning to be done. Cleaning really improves the mood, and my health is slowly back on track too. I feel motivated to work out – a little. One of my relatives is a Pranic Healer, and they offered to clean my energy body in December when I met them last. Maybe I should look that up. For now, I need a shower.

Without really thinking about it, I’ve written over 700 words here. I should write a tl;dr version.

tl;dr version

House was rotten. Gave it a thorough cleaning over weekend. Work to go.

Angry letter on Saturday that readers didn’t get to see seems to be working.

March Recipe Lab is chocolate. Need feedback on Recipe Lab’s usefulness or if I should stop. Please leave comment below this post. Thanks.

Need a shower. Bye!

Narcissism is Good For You

#MicroblogMondays February 15th, 2016 – Narcissism is good for you and is key in self love. A healthy narcissistic worldview manages your emotions.

For the past few months, most times when I look into a mirror, I can’t help crack a smile. Whenever my face appears rested and fresh, or my hair game is strong, or my body looks toned, I smile, and I feel happy despite whatever I’d been feeling prior to that.

I’ve been told that I am not a good-looking person, but am very “presentable” – my grooming has always been to be presentable. Over the last few years, I’ve taken control of my look – my hair, my skincare, and most recently, my clothing.

I’m not fashion-forward – I’m actually fashion-f**ked. Friends and relatives not aged more than 30 have told me I dress too old for my age. It’s the result of an obsessive father who always insisted on choosing the clothes – both for me and my sister. Growing out of that, and wresting control from him, has been an identity-forming experience for both of us.

One of my thirteen New Year’s Resolutions / Year Plan facets has been to improve the way I dress. In January, I purchased a few new pieces of clothing that I’m proud of. However, I realize now that I consulted both my parents over Whatsapp – displaying a lack of confidence in my choice.

That’s okay because I’m not used to buying clothes for myself (that will see more than casual usage). However, the next set of clothes I get made WILL be an autonomous choice, whether I like it or not. I bought some shoes, and am really happy I didn’t consult anybody, and want to continue this trend.

As I take control of my appearance, getting a fashionable haircut, good clothes, and working on losing weight, I find myself feeling better about myself. I’m slowly learning that the dichotomy of characteristics we are taught in our childhood is not as rigid as it seemed. Traits deemed “negative” – sadness, selfishness, and indeed, narcissism, among others, are not to be avoided entirely. Every attribute is required in some quantity, and my narcissism is necessary for me to love myself and bring myself out of a funk every so often.

This article is “I” heavy, which is supposedly an indicator of egoism, egotism and narcissism, and that’s okay.

Do you engage in narcissistic activites? Are you a mirror lover, or a bathroom singer, or a preener? Leave a comment below. 🙂

P.S. I found the featured image via Google Images. Traced it back to who I THINK is the original creator – Margaret Shaw-MacKinnon. Check them out. Thanks for the image!