Red and Alone

A hungry man will not think twice before eating burnt or overly salty food. A homeless man will not shy away from dirty cardboard boxes. Similarly a lonely man will talk to anybody.

Ever wanted to just get away from everything and everyone? Ever felt so bad that you stopped talking altogether and locked yourself away? If such a situation has occurred, have you thought about running away, escaping, maybe even ending it all?
Then hours or maybe days later, did you have a change of heart?

The Daily Post asks us what we would miss about earth if we had to leave it. For me, that’d be the people. All the people – the nice family, the shitty judgmental family, the close friends, the distant friends, the assholes, the rude, maybe even the backstabbers. Because from my little experience on this planet, I’ve never felt anything worse than loneliness. It has the combined impact of sadness, craziness, hopelessness and anger on me. I’ve never been clinically depressed, or at least never consulted someone about it, and so I don’t know about depression, but loneliness is at the absolute top of my list of things I never want to feel.

A hungry man will not think twice before eating burnt or overly salty food. A homeless man will not shy away from dirty cardboard boxes. Similarly a lonely man will talk to anybody. Petty squabbles and fights are forgotten when you have no one else to talk to. This is probably one of the reasons why teenagers are so image-conscious (I was one up till 3 years ago, I know a bit at least) – they go through so many emotions and pressures and growth phases, that they dread any more bad feelings.

There is a heart-wrenching scene in the penultimate episode of Breaking Bad.

*WARNING! POSSIBLE SPOILERS. Highlight the paragraph below to see the text.*

Walter is in a cabin where Saul’s guy put him, in order to transition him into a new life with a new identity. At the end of the first month, when the man comes back to replenish Walt’s supplies, Walt softly asks him to stay. “Stay a little longer? … Two hours? I’ll– I’ll give you another $10,000. Please?” It broke my heart. And even more so, when the guy accepts the ten thousand dollars but only in exchange for 1 hour. For all the money that Walt scraped together, in the end, he was alone. His family had deserted him and he was begging for company, which even then was denied him. It was a heart-wrenching scene.


People are wonderful. In the long run, we tend to find the number of people we need, and we find that many people. Sometimes we manage to do it in the short term too. I’ve always felt that my number is 3. At any time, I need 3 friends/family members to be happy. Here are some names:

  • Kaustubh, Aman, Pranav
  • Kaustubh, Pranav, Saubhagya
  • Kaustubh, Pranav, Saket
  • Kaustubh, Siddharth, Aman
  • Siddharth, Rishabh, Somdatta ; Harsh, Ayush, Kishan
  • Paritosh, Navratan, Anmol; Srishma, Sneha, Amala
  • Paritosh, Navratan, Raunaq; Srishma, Sneha, Yajnaseni; Sanjana, Alekhya, Vibha
  • Vibha, Srishma, Sneha; Paritosh, Navratan, Raunaq
  • Vibha, Puja, Aakriti;  Paritosh, Navratan, Raunaq
  • Vibha; Puja, Bharath, Animesh;  Paritosh, Navratan, Raunaq

These names are meaningless to you, the reader, but to me, they are the most important names in my life. These are the people I’ve always leaned on, sometimes even unfairly; the people I have shared my dreams and hopes and doubts and confusions with. Each bullet point represents a phase of my life. Aside from one, who is special, everyone else is in a group of 3. These people are the ones to whom I’ve not been afraid to give myself in entirety. There have been terrible people, and there have been good people who became bad, and they don’t exist in my life anymore. There are people who don’t gel with me, who don’t like me. Some even hate me. It doesn’t matter, because I have the people I want to live life with.

If there is anything I’m saying here, it is this – we are all highly hopeful and optimistic people in the long run. We all want to lead happy fulfilling lives, and we want people to share our lives with. If I’m headed to Mars, you can be sure there will be 3 people with me.

If you found this post interesting, please help me out with a like/share. Do you know how many people you need in your life at any given time? Do you disagree that we need people? Tell me below in the comments. Let’s get a discussion going.

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  • The concept of needing people, I think, stems from a deep sense of dissatisfaction with the self. This analysis does not bar anyone, in my opinion, every person needs someone, be it their family or close friends or even acquaintances at times. If someone says otherwise they’re probably kidding themselves. Personally I have found that I can sustain myself with one person(not necessarily romantic). I can give myself wholeheartedly to that one person and almost expect nothing in return(this isn’t always wise, because the world is 80% assholes).
    If I recall correctly you had previously done a similar post, The 2AM Friend, which was the subject of a recent Airtel ad campaign as well- the post captured the essence of the people we need/love in a brilliant way.

    Congratulations on the completion of 60 posts on the blog. It’s been a pleasure reading them. Chin up. 🙂

    • My ego is inclined to disagree, but I know better. We’re all dissatisfied with ourselves in some way, aren’t we? You’d have to be an ascetic not to be.
      Yes, The 2AM Friend. You, at one point. Does Airtel owe me royalty?

      Thank you for reading. 🙂 I’d love more feedback if you’re up to it. Maybe I should start polling readers.
      Now Writing 101 will take the post count to 90, and prompts will take it beyond 100. Soon. 😀

  • Also also, shameless self promotion, add me back on twitter: @sorocho93 😀

    • LOL. Fine.
      Remove the 93 from your handle though. It’s unnecessary. We established long ago the uniqueness of your online nametag.