Red and Alone

A hungry man will not think twice before eating burnt or overly salty food. A homeless man will not shy away from dirty cardboard boxes. Similarly a lonely man will talk to anybody.

Ever wanted to just get away from everything and everyone? Ever felt so bad that you stopped talking altogether and locked yourself away? If such a situation has occurred, have you thought about running away, escaping, maybe even ending it all?
Then hours or maybe days later, did you have a change of heart?

The Daily Post asks us what we would miss about earth if we had to leave it. For me, that’d be the people. All the people – the nice family, the shitty judgmental family, the close friends, the distant friends, the assholes, the rude, maybe even the backstabbers. Because from my little experience on this planet, I’ve never felt anything worse than loneliness. It has the combined impact of sadness, craziness, hopelessness and anger on me. I’ve never been clinically depressed, or at least never consulted someone about it, and so I don’t know about depression, but loneliness is at the absolute top of my list of things I never want to feel.

A hungry man will not think twice before eating burnt or overly salty food. A homeless man will not shy away from dirty cardboard boxes. Similarly a lonely man will talk to anybody. Petty squabbles and fights are forgotten when you have no one else to talk to. This is probably one of the reasons why teenagers are so image-conscious (I was one up till 3 years ago, I know a bit at least) – they go through so many emotions and pressures and growth phases, that they dread any more bad feelings.

There is a heart-wrenching scene in the penultimate episode of Breaking Bad.

*WARNING! POSSIBLE SPOILERS. Highlight the paragraph below to see the text.*

Walter is in a cabin where Saul’s guy put him, in order to transition him into a new life with a new identity. At the end of the first month, when the man comes back to replenish Walt’s supplies, Walt softly asks him to stay. “Stay a little longer? … Two hours? I’ll– I’ll give you another $10,000. Please?” It broke my heart. And even more so, when the guy accepts the ten thousand dollars but only in exchange for 1 hour. For all the money that Walt scraped together, in the end, he was alone. His family had deserted him and he was begging for company, which even then was denied him. It was a heart-wrenching scene.


People are wonderful. In the long run, we tend to find the number of people we need, and we find that many people. Sometimes we manage to do it in the short term too. I’ve always felt that my number is 3. At any time, I need 3 friends/family members to be happy. Here are some names:

  • Kaustubh, Aman, Pranav
  • Kaustubh, Pranav, Saubhagya
  • Kaustubh, Pranav, Saket
  • Kaustubh, Siddharth, Aman
  • Siddharth, Rishabh, Somdatta ; Harsh, Ayush, Kishan
  • Paritosh, Navratan, Anmol; Srishma, Sneha, Amala
  • Paritosh, Navratan, Raunaq; Srishma, Sneha, Yajnaseni; Sanjana, Alekhya, Vibha
  • Vibha, Srishma, Sneha; Paritosh, Navratan, Raunaq
  • Vibha, Puja, Aakriti;  Paritosh, Navratan, Raunaq
  • Vibha; Puja, Bharath, Animesh;  Paritosh, Navratan, Raunaq

These names are meaningless to you, the reader, but to me, they are the most important names in my life. These are the people I’ve always leaned on, sometimes even unfairly; the people I have shared my dreams and hopes and doubts and confusions with. Each bullet point represents a phase of my life. Aside from one, who is special, everyone else is in a group of 3. These people are the ones to whom I’ve not been afraid to give myself in entirety. There have been terrible people, and there have been good people who became bad, and they don’t exist in my life anymore. There are people who don’t gel with me, who don’t like me. Some even hate me. It doesn’t matter, because I have the people I want to live life with.

If there is anything I’m saying here, it is this – we are all highly hopeful and optimistic people in the long run. We all want to lead happy fulfilling lives, and we want people to share our lives with. If I’m headed to Mars, you can be sure there will be 3 people with me.

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